liar

stop lying to yourself.
Don't blame everything on missing your alma mater. Move on, go with the flow.
I'm just so tired on trying to put on a smiley facade when deep inside, I'm just decomposing and the pain sears through my heart, eating me inside out. I come to a point where life has no meaning and I'm just so tired of the education system.

Why? Why here?
What exactly is your reason for being where you are?
I really don't know anymore.

I'm tired of achieving smth that is far above my reach and tired of trying my best, just to fail again. Tired of picking myself up when I fall. Tired of being a good Christian light when the harder I try, the more I fail.

Self-pity? YEA MAYBE. But maybe I have come to a point in my life when I just need to relax, sit back and ponder why I am here of all other places and what exactly is the meaning in life.

Coz' life just has no meaning and the day passes like sand in the desert. And I'm just a cactus, bottling up all my emotions and pricking anyone who tries to understand me. I don't know where my oasis is anymore. And now camels are drifting further away.