Pahang was....complicated. If the objectives were to get to know yourself more, I now know I'm a @#$%$^&*( friend. It's hard but I tried. And when tries don't even work out, sad doesn't even come close.
I know I can be frank person sometimes much too frank and judgemental. And seriously? I hate me for that. Well, you can go Yi Ying just change! Yea right. I tried right? But just not hard enough. Sometimes I just hate myself for being a __________. Fill in the blank.
Why cant I just be typical girl? I just don't like to talk about guys and clothes and whatelse. I just don't like to say Oh My G. Not all girls are like that but they have at least 1 characteristic. But who AM I to say anything when there are billion gazillions of planks in my eye but just a splint in someone else's eye.
I'm sorry I just take such a long time to warm up to people. Sorry if I always appear so aloof and unfriendly and discouraging and unapproachable. I try hard to make friends but there are already cliques and it seems so weird to butt in and start discussing a topic that's so foreign to me that I feel like a hypocrite.
And I tried to give myself a new platform and a beginning to make dreams and a good character work out. And now I have just tarnished a normal girl's reputation to a bossy irritating get on your nerves dun know how to have fun person and people remember that. No matter how much I try, this image can't be erased, can it?
Sometimes when I do good works. it's for my personal glory. You are such a hypocrite, YiYing. I want to feel appreciated.
and maturity is not just blahs but accepting failures and taking obstacles in your stride. YiYing, you are so immature.
I'm not being hard on myself. Maybe I have. But no results seem to have taken place.
Sometimes I just want to punch myself when I blurt out insensitive stuff that I wouldn't want to hear either from another person. Do unto others what you want them unto you. What happened to that?
You think you are so mature and high and mighty but in the end you're just a leech.
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