hullabaloo

To kick start the weekend, I shall sort out my thoughts.

I'm a confused person. Seriously.

Oh okay, here goes.

1. Ankle.
This has been a nagging problem for the past 3 months and why my ankle hasn't healed is a mystery. Oh k fine fine, yes i continued with ballet, and floorball buttttttttttttttttt i rested okay after exam and competition.
K I accept its my fault but it should heal like now. Now. nOw. noW. NOW!!!
dang it.
I want to train. I want to see my consistent full marks GOLD for my NAPFA not some physically unfit crap.
I want to run and train my 2.4 stamina not worrying about my leg.
It just takes about 2 sec to destroy my whole physical fitness and the nicest thing is that my ankle did not give up gloriously. I was like standing on the stop and poof, it gave way. Wow.
I feel really bad for the team. Everbody hate suicides but at least you do it in the know of your increasing stamina. I don't want to lag behind while everyone is improving.
We need to come back with a bang next year and show everybody that we train hard and we're going to thrash the people that trashed us. We deserve it.
Dah. So it just demoralizes me to go back to watch training or practice my shots when I just feel so lousy.

And thats not the best thing yet, folks!

2. I have 3 different opinions on how my ankle should heal
There are contradictions, crap, and at least a tinge of stupidity in everyone of them.
Baseline: I don't know what to do and I'm confused.
How is my ankle gonna heal if I don't even know what to do????!!!???
SO.
everyone says physio is crap. It is kinda coz an exercise I did was smth precisely shouldnt be done if not it would make my condition worse. But according to physio, the results are the best. 2-3 wks heal. But I thought it was crap so I gave it up aft the 1st wk.

Then I went to sinseh which said months but I felt an improvement with acupuncture and bandage with some black paste. But now I dun feel anything coz he said now I don't have to go back and just wait for it to heal.

Then the family doctor gave the wheat, no the RICE method. And he said if i dun heal in 8 wks, go operation to tighten my tendon. WHAAA??!!

3. Ballet
I haven't been going for the term and I'm not sure if she would choose me next yr. iwanttobewithmycohort!
Sigh. Grade 7 seems to be drifting away and I can't seem to get a hold on it.

I'm so darn sad.