indecision

I'm in search of a friend, one who I see and can talk to daily. Sometimes I wish I was one year older because somehow the people I can relate to better are 1 year older and the only reason that we don't talk is because of the age barrier.

I have no idea where on earth I'm heading in this state of mine- disillusioned.

I want a group of people that I can feel comfortable with, be myself with and have fun with.
I'm a fun person thought outwardly I can appear aloof. And the problem is I only can be fun when people get past the aloof-ness which obviously many don't bother to.

When you are just dead tired after running some huge homework marathorn you need a friend to talk to. And I miss bus-ing with Jaz they all. Bus rides are all so lonely and I just plonk down on my nag (hunched over) and sleep (It's a funny sight).

Many say that do what your heart tells you to.
But I rule by my head. Many say that once you make a decision, you'll either feel discomfort or peace.
But what if the head is peaceful but heart is restless?
What do you do then?

I really don't know.
And maybe through this emo-time I should just go do my puzzle. It's thereupathic, seriously.
And it reminds me of the gang (I'm currently working on a winnie-the-pooh one).

Okay many don't know the winnie the pooh story. We shall begin.
Register no.31-34 was lalala happy in Cedar, esp 31-33. And spastic too.
31 and 33 are childish ppl.
31 said to 33: '' You look like piglet." It's true really coz of her button nose but she's far from the worrisome type of piglet.
33 replied: " Then you look like tigger arh!" Which is also true coz she laughs in that weird annoying manner and also bounces around non-stop.
32 was as usual stoning and being blur.
Hence the name :" eeyore."
And 34 was minding her own business, deep in throughts and tao-ing them. Also giving them the " I can't believe you guys" look. Arched eyebrows and all.
" OOHHhhh you look wise and tan. You SHALL be owl."
WHATATATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

and few wks later roo came into the picture too coz she kept acting cute.
-end of story-
hence the affilation to winnie the pooh.
But it's comforting to do puzzles esp bright and cheery ones, maybe because I feel like I have control over something that I can join and make complete, unlike the disjointed pieces in my life.
Maybe that's the reason why I like sewing too, coz I feel at rest like I'm forming something together, stitching something to be a masterpiece.

I am a masterpiece. Paul says so. God says so. Ephesians 2:10
Now it's time I believe in it.