God's grace

Lord, let me not lose sight of what's most important,give me a broken heart and a contrite spirit.

Ohkay I just have to recall this to remind myself of God's grace.

I went to the library ytd to return all 3 books which I hardly touched. Sad. Kahlil Gibran, Richard Yates, and a collection of poems. I FINALLY borrowed Ted Hughes's Birthday Letters and The Bone Garden by Tess Gerritsen. Havent read her books in a very long time. But anyway when I went out of the library I saw my bus and if you know me, I dislike waiting for buses with the exception of cool mornings with my father. Hence I do what I always do (I ran) and halfway my wallet must have flown out of my old deuter bag (it was heavy). And when I reached into my bag it was freaking gone and I was like panicking and hyper ventilating. So I retraced my steps but it was NOWHERE to be found. And I was thinking in my mind and muttering under my breath " Only you can help me God".

And I saw it on a flowerbed, and because my wallet is greenish-turquoise it camouflaged and nobody took it. I was so so so grateful to God.

But what if I didn't find it? Will I still give thanks to God? It's so much easier to thank God when things are going well, like these few weeks. It's almost an anticipation for something strenous and draining that will happen in the weeks to come. God won't bring you where his grace cannot keep you. :)

I love life and being in school on bright sunshiny days, eating in the canteen without the crowd. I love doing brainteasers in class :P (except for the guilt that I'm not listening), the laughs, the pumpkin soup, the sprouting of food from underneath the table :)

I really think I'm finally feeling real joy. I told God, showed me how it is to feel loved by you, show me the extent of your love so that it will really hit me. I don't think I fully understand the cross, and I want to.

Church anniversary tmr!