Teeth sinking into heart

Heels on the edge, body floating in the water parallel to the ground, ears below water level, eyes staring at the sky, hands outstretched. It is the most peaceful earthly sensation.

Then... a voice calls, and suddenly, the noises of the world come rushing back.

BAM.
sigh.

I think I'm gonna lose my head. No, not the Sleepy Hollow way. At least I hope not.

I haven't been to the cinemas in a long long time. Last movie I watched? Breakfast at Tiffany's. Classic but lack of direction. Still it's good to find a romantic film that stops at kissing.

I think I'm a workaholic. Pity I'm not a studyholic. I'm so obsessed with group work that my individual marks are the ones pulling me down. A test every week is just injustice (an unintentional pun). I rather have mid years.

If by now, you haven't realized, my thoughts are in a mess as usual and am throwing them out the moment they surface, hence the lack of flow.

Haven't gotten around to reading Revolutionary Road by Richard Yates nor Broken Wings by Kahlil Gibran. resolve RESOLVE!

I like Mushrooms by Sylvia Plath and no I disagree that it is military-like the way the growth of the mushrooms are described. Maybe affective fallacy is coming into play here because I would prefer a poem about mushrooms to be gentle, slow and natural. Why did she die so early? And if you notice a trend here, many genuises die by suicide. Ernest Hemingway too. Sad.

Salmon, mushroom and apples. I think this basically covers the food I like to eat.
Salmon in Mushroom sauce at Fish and Co.....

Haha today while we were watching Three Little Pigs (bring back memories doesn't it?)which draws a parallel to Matthew 7:24-27, the wolf hit an apple tree and all the apples fell and I was like "APPLES!" and Diane started laughing at my obsession with apples. Haha. I love rose apples, MELISSA you twisted my tastebuds to acquire the love for rose apples now I can't eat normal GALA and FUJI apples without thinking of the better alternative! There are apples in Kazahkstan (Almaty means apple city I think) and North Korea (hmmm...)

I've been placing my foundation on accolades. Word assocation we discussed in Cell today. So what if I'm in VJ? SO WHAT? I have to stop being self-centred and plain selfish which I think I have been becoming lately. I think I keep getting disappointed in Humanity and sometimes at life because I place my foundation on the wrong things, my expectations on things that are bound to fail, on flawed beings, including myself.

The below may sound contradictory.

An honour I've been waiting for. I may not read Uncanny stories by May Sinclair but I will definitely remember the significance of this book. Thank you Mr Teo. You have no idea how much this means to me. This sounds pretty much gushing already so I shall stop.

YAY FOR NEW MALAY TEACHER. I just calculated. I have wasted 140 hours of my life, which is 6 days of my life on Malay lessons which did not benefit me. I'm grateful that help came in time. One month to Oral.

I think I should be swearing off coffee soon. Not that I was actually addicted to it or something but its side effects really outweigh its benefit. Still, Caramellatte at Gloria Jean's was nice. Apples apparently help people keep awake. Hmm...

I think sweeping things under the carpet, especially a lovely non-suspicious one has been going on for way too long. Things will eventually surface which has been proven of late. It's alright. I realized when you cry into a pillow with your tears running perpendicular to the pillow, it makes an almost perfect circle, just like circles formed while doing Ronde de Jambe on the sand. I like outlining the edges of teardrops on paper to create the black smudgy effect.

We're having a quote of the day everyday in my table group.
Is seaweed halal?
Duh its seaweed not seameat.

(insert: Endless teasing from Joanne.)

[playing around with alkanes and alkenes] This is a hydrogen molecule, This is a nitrogen molecule. What's its molecular formula? H1N1. Very funny, Rish :o

I realize that many many jokes my table group make have to do with studies and content. Good/bad?....

New experimentation: Black ink on brown parchment.

Teacher- The one who makes the tea.
Youth Day- The day to study chem.