Decisions

I'm growing onto this life. Latching on to it even. It may be quite hard to let go, but I'll deal with that when it comes. (Shall I defer it by not signing on to be an OGL?)

I go to school to get PW done, achieve a sense of entitlement, and come back and watch House. It's the first TV series I've watched this entire year. I stay up at night, sifting through pdf files of UNFCCC processes while checking out music on Grooveshark. I just completed The Story of Art, will be uploading learning points soon.

Sure it does not sound like full-fledged limitless enjoyment, but it is a qualified one. And pleasure in small doses make me happy enough. Although the COP16 trip takes up quite a bit of time, I'm quite relieved it's there to give me direction in my holidays.

I can slump on the bed and sleep restfully in the evening without worrying much. But I wonder about next year. I do have decisions to make.

Firstly, H3. Then H3 Hist or Lit? Earthwatch, how many initiatives? Leave a legacy? Debate- To try to make the team or acknowledge inability to commit? Serving in Church? And the complexity arises in my need to make all these decisions simultaneously because giving up one, enables me to commit to another.

One of my greater stresses in not my threshold for stress, but my fatigue. Sometimes I'm just so tired, it affects my emotions.

Gotta tape up that ankle and run.