indecisive me

i have thought about it the whole week without losing thought about it every single hour.

And i have made a temporary decision.

I'm handing in my application but i am not as keen as i was last week.
maybe deep in my heart all along, i knew that i would have made the decision to stay in cedar. the vj open house threw me off track.

im not saying that the vj is a lousy school. i think its wonderful instituite.i love the integrated programmme educational system but i'm not ready to leave cedar. Mrs Ou Yang got me thinking and she DID mentioned that 2 wanted to appeal back. if i leave cedar. i would miss LOADS. i like being in the prefectorial board. i LOVE being in HANDBELLS.

For Handbells, i would:

miss hannah jabbing her chopsticks at me when she agrees with what i am saying
miss jia hui with her ' i must, i must, i must improve my bust' march
miss si hui with her cheerfulness
miss dorothy with her weird way of bouncing
miss geetha for our improvisation of songs
miss jaan and her mafia and yakuza organsation
( i would miss the 2 algaes too)
miss mingee for her nice smile
miss priscilla and her politeness and laugh
miss hannah imitating chandel
miss screaming and running after the 135 bus
miss walking to the bus stop together
miss lecturing them while they clutch their famous amos cookies
miss hannah limited vocab
miss dorothy kawaii way of saying jap
miss dorothy, jia hui and sangee ganging up on me and pretending to dao me
miss mrs aw nice english
miss mrs aw nice smile
miss 2009 SYF

i would miss so much about handbells. i can't bear to leave.

meanwhile i would still be thinking of my decision. consult people who are in vj and find out how it is. jia you Yi Ying!

Pray that God will give me a direction so that i will fufill His purpose for me in my life.